Musings of a Father Wound

You really thought you was gonna come into my life, make me fall in love with you and then leave?

Do me dirty like that.

Betray me.

Lie to me.

Deceive me.

Take my love.

Take my energy.

Take my youth. And my teen years

Hold me back.

Hold me down.

Ignore me.

Treat me like shit.

Lie lie lie lie lie.

Not let me go.

Yet, I couldn’t let you go either.

So stuck.

So stagnant.

So little self worth.

Just love me!

LOVE ME!

Say you didn’t mean it.

Say it was a mistake.

Say you don’t have eyes for anybody else.

Say I mean something to you.

Say I’m your priority.

And mean it.

And be there.

But no.

You’re not capable.

Of love.

Of kindness.

Of compassion.

Of empathy.

Of respect.

Of support.

Of sovereignty.

A scared, little boy.

Who feels unloveable.

So has to make someone else feel that way.

All of us.

ALL OF US.

Your children.

Your flesh and blood.

Angels.

And you didn’t see it.

You didn’t feel it.

Incapable of love.

Incapable of love.

Incapable.

Inescapable.

But I am untamable.

I am wild.

I am the fire.

I am the ocean.

I am the lion, roaring.

For she doesn’t need you to love her.

She IS love.

She is LOVE.

Love.

She is the source.

One.

With the Divine.

The power to create runs through her veins.

Through her blood.

Through her energy field.

Powerful.

A Creator.

A force.

A portal.

A vessel for The Divine

A vessel for Souls.

She is.

She is that.

I AM.

I AM THAT. 🔥

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